I'm forced to fake a smile.

I will not make the same mistakes that you did. I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery. I will not break the way you did, you fell so hard. I've learned the hard way to never let it get that far.
I lose my way and it's not too long before you point it out. I cannot cry because I know that's weakness in your eyes.
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh, every day of my life. my heart can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with.

I watched you die, I heard you cry every night in your sleep. I was so young, you should have known better than to lean on me. you never thought of anyone else. you just saw your pain and now I cry in the middle of the night for the same damn thing.

because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk. because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt. because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me. because of you I am afraid.

because of you.